Sitting under the tree in the front yard, watching the light dance between the thinning leaves. I know that soon they will turn and fall, with all the beauty and grace that Autumn brings.
I am thinking about school and sending my kiddos off to the big building filled with concrete and Kids, hallways and hormones… It is still an odd place to find my heart. We homeschooled until high school and then felt God calling us to send them to public school… Believe me, I questioned a lot. Maybe we didn’t hear right. Could this really be what God wants for my kids? But now we are embarking on year 2 and seeing His Grace in it all.
But I am praying.
Today I find myself praying about friends… asking God to bring divine appointments for new relationship. Ones that will shape my kids for the better. Friends that will feel safe…. Comfortable. These are good prayers…Right?
Sure… But God nudges my heart… Don’t stop there…
I still struggle with so much fear.
What if the friends He brings them are a little rough around the edges?… or what if their edges are broken? What if these friends have no edges? No Boundaries? What then?
Day by day I am learning to trust Him with those who I hold the closest to my heart and day by day He has never failed us. So I will pray that my kids are sent out to be light in the darkness, joy in the midst of sorrow, truth surrounded by lies. That they will love the broken as well as the whole. That they will not walk in fear but in POWER and LOVE and a SOUND MIND. Will you join me in this prayer for all our kids? And will you trust, with me, in the One who has called them by name and even now holds them in his strong hands?
Next week, I will pack lunches, write Notes, watch for busses and pray as if their lives depend on it! And I will choose not to fear!